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words: Debarati Ray
In this cybernetic age of continuous progression and demand, when all the time quite unknowingly of ourselves we`re running after something in order to reach towards our long desired goals according to the so called success meter, the word `introvert` may seem to you as only a group of people who are nothing, but the unsuccessful ones, hopelessly spending their time alone, sitting at their home corners and deeply engaged into their own world of habitual belongings. Though on an apparent level, you`re right to some extent. But if you probe deep into this mater, you will get to know that their own world is not something detached from our world of existence, rather very much special and intuitive in the sense. And it is only for their special power, within they can feel their true presence in this world of existence that most of the time we tend to forget, while living a life of an extrovert, attracting external glitters and getting ourselves beguiled into the so called external appreciations.
Here, in this blog I am not criticizing the extroverts and their desire to connect to the world outside, rather this is very much effective in this world of globalization. But here my intention is to make you feel that being an introvert doesn`t mean something, like detaching yourself from the external world, rather it means knowing yourself in a more explorative way and bridging up the gap, once again with the external world in a newer way, gaining a different spiritual wisdom; something beyond this tangible world of perceptions, but exploring within a different perception, a higher one, I guess to know yourself and the world outside.
In a simpler way to interpret it is not only a psychological exploration to find yourself, rather a spiritual revelation to feel your being in a more insightful way, in a way when you can talk to your inner self in an intuitive manner. The world outside may consider you as one of the mystics but you yourself know better that you also have an enigmatic force, within to talk with and it is only that creative force, within who knows that you`re nothing, but only an essence of eternity, a spiritual being in a human form. If you pay some heed to your inner voice, you can feel she`s still humming, within;
“Never feel disheartened, if no one knows your name/ even if, you don`t have that wish to seek for others fame/ but let`s dive into that stream, flowing within/ there you may feel your name with Me/ your magical presence; you`re and will be/ and there only you may find that age old tapestry/ bearing on it, your primordial grace/ the real truth of eternity itself…”
And here in lies the mystery of being introspective, the mystery of knowing yourself in a deeper way through a magical introspection that apparently we cannot feel, but it has its presence, very much real and authentic.
It`s nothing, but turning within and gaining a different awareness to feel your entity in a newer way:
Sometimes what we see apparently in this tangible world may not be the reality itself. But on a very first place, the external layer of our conscious mind cannot admit this fact. And on the contrary it always tend to attract the external glitters, continually search for all the external affairs that are actually nothing, but only some fruitless exploration of something that`s already we have, within into the deeper core of our inner mind. But we never pay any heed to that. Rather always try to get more and more extrovert to cope up with the world outside, considering the introverts as only a group of failures who are utterly incapable to sustain with these external allurements. But in this due course of external merry making we always tend to ignore the very fact of our life; where in lies the real core of our existence. We always wish for extra gain and all the time seek for some external pleasures, totally ignoring the real truth of our spiritual existence that solely begins, within and introduces before us a totally different world, another dimension of reality when all the external glitters quite automatically will start to fade away and only that introspective journey appear before us as the most real and eternal itself.
Here I’m not saying that being an introvert is detaching yourself from the external world completely and all the time criticizing the world outside, being a cynic. But it is, I feel a greater opportunity to turn, within, not by detaching yourself from the external world, but by withdrawing from all other external objects and sheltering yourself into your sweet home for a higher introspection, for knowing yourself in a deeper way. As it is the only gateway to feel your true being, to perceive the truth of your spiritual existence.
While an extrovert mind always tempts to seek for external glitters, an introvert always seeks, within, seeks for that center and gradually falls in love with that center, within. In that sense it`s not only a psychological exploration, but also a spiritual journey instead, a centralized one that always advocates to know yourself, that inner kingdom and get introduced with that universal source of energy, already connected to your being, since the primordial time of your existence.
Here in this section, my intention is neither to beguile you with the message that your external life is nothing, but only a fruitless survival, nor I am saying that your external circumstances will be changed with a wink of an eye. Sometimes the experiences you gain throughout your external life may be helpful enough, as our life, I feel is nothing, but only a continuous learning process. A discovery of something special. And here in lies the utility of gaining such experiences, but at the same time it is an introspective exploration to know yourself in a newer way, if you want to perceive your spiritual existence in a deeper way. And here my point is, the moment you start to incline into your inner kingdom, quite automatically you may feel that your consciousness starts to realign with your very presence and you get awakened with that feeling, inside that you`re not alone in this world, rather very much connected to the divine truth of universal intelligence. And once again, you may start to feel that you also have an inner purpose, beyond the interpretations of your external conscious mind, beyond your ordinary consciousness, beyond this tangible world that always gives importance to your illusive ego self in order to seek for external appreciations.
In order to explicate in a deeper way, here I would like to share with you an experience of a painter who was very much introvert in nature, but her art had that ability to connect to the world, outside more in a newer way, in a way where creation can only hold the truth of real grace and eternity as well. In her own confession, I got to know how she came into that introspective journey, quite in a surprising way and got introduced with another dimension of reality where she found herself in a newer way, quite contrary to the usual way of our conscious interpretations. It would be more explicable for you if you go through those words in her own voice;
“I don`t know why, but most often I wished to couch myself into my own…it was really a peaceful shelter for me, from the external hurly burly, from all the chaos, outside, drumming their presence in an incessant manner…it was neither a detachment for me, nor an alienation from the world, outside, but only to perceive something, beyond this tangible world of reality, a discernment, I felt, within… to build a deeper connection with my own! During those hours, I used to be very much with myself, completely aligned to my true entity…and one fine morning a miracle happened when this piece of art embraced me with all its magical grace! On a very first place, I was totally spell bound, couldn`t express anything…but deep, within I felt it like a bliss!” Then she paused for a while. There was a deep silence prevailed around us, until she presented before me, her first piece of art that she painted on that very morning, on that special hour when she was completely with herself, with her own silence, with her own stillness. And still I remember that smile of satisfaction, lurking all over her face. “it was my first painting…you may consider me as a mystic or a psychic or even an introvert who doesn`t like anyone`s intrusion…but the fact was not like that…it was simply an introspective journey for me…to know myself and trust me dear! I just love to be in that journey, to be lulled with its every moment where I used to feel that I’m with me…and that was really a blissful experience for me…” She said. That painting was of nothing, but of a dense forest where under the canopies she allows herself to sit, just beside a lake, with all her solitude, only with her own reflection, trembling with those ripples in its own way. And there you can feel nothing, but only a magical bliss, surrounding her entity; it was really a splendid work of art! In a deeper way to interpret it was not only a piece of art, but an art to feel her being in a blissful way; an art to feel her communion with her own, with eternity as well!
Being an introvert is nothing but an opportunity to spend some time with your inner artist and gaining a different wisdom:
I know some of you may think, being an introvert and living a life of seclusion is not the ideal way to survive in this materialistic world of continuous demand and progression. You may also think that this life of seclusion can only make you feel feeble and timid at the end of the day and as the more you start to spend time with your own, the more you`ll get self- centered and day by day you may also lose your interest to connect to the world, outside. But here in this section I would like to change that perspective that usually we`ve, regarding this word `introvert`.
Here my point is being an introvert is not detaching yourself willfully from the external world. Instead, it`s something very much spontaneous in nature. In this journey, quite unknowingly of yourself you may start to feel that you need some time alone to talk to yourself. And here in lies its spontaneity. Moreover if you wish to know your spiritual existence in a deeper way, this introspective journey is the only gateway, I perceive to feel your being, once again! In that sense, when you`re an introvert, you need not to be embarrassed for that, but what you need to do is to reflect on yourself in an intuitive way, talking to yourself and trying to know where in lies the hidden core of your existence. The more you get aligned with your inner self, the more you can feel that you`re gaining a different insight, something higher and different from our usual way of reasoning but having a reality, within. And quite automatically you start to feel that you`re not only talking to yourself, but your depth is speaking with its depth and there you`re only the witness of that silent conversation; nothing more, nothing less than that! But only an absolute tranquility, you can only feel for a newer creation, for a newer emergence! And here in lies the truth of this alignment with yourself; the eternal truth of your presence that cannot be analyzed by your external conscious mind, but only to be felt, within, with a close communion solely with your deeper self!
Here my point is, if you know yourself that you`re an introvert in nature, never lose yourself, my dear! Never be a prisoner of your own fruitless negative thoughts that may lead you nowhere, but only towards a state of an identity crisis that you`re nothing, but only a misfit into this world. Rather, compose yourself for a while, close your eyes and try to feel who you`re. And I can assure you, your inner self will never leave you astray, never make you feel that you`re nothing, but introduce before you another dimension of your existence. You`ll be introduced with your true creator, within who all the time harks you back, waits for your communion and inspires you, once again to come back to your true center.
And during that state of close communion with yourself, quite automatically you start to feel that your illusive ego self is getting faded away and once again, you`re sitting in front of your true reflection, in front of your true entity who for a long period of time wishes to be emerged before the world in a newer way, in a way when you need not to be embarrassed for aligning with your true self, but acceptance comes in its natural grace and once again, quite miraculously, you can start to feel where in lies the true worth of your existence! And here in lies its magic; a magic of knowing yourself, exploring the inner enigma that you already possess within and perceiving the deeper truth that is essential to lit the candle of your being to rejuvenate your soul, once again.
It`s not only a communion with your own, but a revelation of a transcendental reality, a reality of your existence, a reality that holds the truth of your eternal connection to the divine source of universal intelligence. When you`re deeply aligned to your true being, quite automatically it provides you a deeper meaning of your existence, channelizing your consciousness towards a transcendental reality to make you feel that you`re here, you had been and will be with your eternal presence. And the moment you start to get aligned to this ultimate wisdom, quite automatically a reflection starts to grow within yourself. That is not only a reflection of your own, but the reflection of a transcendental reality; a reflection of your connection to eternity. And this is the moment of pure consciousness that you only can have through a true communion with yourself. And this pure consciousness can only help you to move forward with a deeper understanding, to know yourself and to know the world, outside in a better way. Quite spontaneously you start to speak with your depth and you can feel that your creator, within answers you back, sometimes in an intuitive way, sometimes through some mystic experiences that may not be interpreted in a tangible way, but only to be felt, within through a deeper realization, through a soulful reflection. And this close communion with your deeper self not only calms your mind, rekindles your inner artist in a deeper level, but also brings back that balance, within to emerge before the world with your newer artistic presence, gaining a true wisdom and permeating its essence in a more constructive and fruitful way.
It`s not only an introspection, but a blessing itself and a reconciliation with your spiritual being, once again:
“Beyond the horizon where no one calls your name/ I will meet you there/ to give you a special name/ that may not be the one/ like your earlier name/ but another one, I guess/ a name that holds your grace/ a name of eternity itself/ that all the time you may feel/ deep within/ deep within your silence…”
This close communion with yourself not only helps you to perceive your presence, but also makes you feel that you`ve another dimension of being, beyond this tangible world of reality. And this is the eternal reality itself. In a way, this close communion serves the role of a mirror to see yourself in a different way, helps you to feel the murmuring of that eternal stream that`s flowing within you, since eternity. It may also help you to probe deeper, within and to feel that pure consciousness, feel your soul`s voice, that inner calling in order perceive that you`re here not for an ordinary survival, but for a blissful existence, to feel a harmonious bond with the divine source of intelligence, with eternity itself!
It`s not only an experience to meet with your inner being, but also an explorative journey to find your home, your sweet abode and reconciling, once again with the deeper core of your existence from where you came and will be merged into after this earthly existence. So, in that sense this journey of introspection is nothing, but always serves as a bridge between the two worlds of your existence; one is your extrovert conscious self that always prompts you to connect to the external world in numerous ways, another one is your deeper intuitive self, very much aligned to your soul, within. And the more you get aligned to that deeper self, the more you`ll get to know, how to connect with the external world, maintaining the balance and being grounded with your roots, within.
And here in lies the mystery of this introspective journey; a journey of your own, a journey of a self- exploration, a journey of a continuous learning, a journey where your inner self quite spontaneously gets aligned with your cosmic presence and your soul, once again starts to flow, within with her eternal grace. And once again, quite spontaneously you start to feel that you`re absolutely centered and grounded within, with your spiritual being, since the primordial time of your existence! You`re, you had been and you`ll be!
