“Still I don`t know how it came to me… how that brooding all encapsulating sadness gradually started to cast a spell all through my existence…that situation was completely beyond any consolation…and the meaningless existence that I was bearing with me, was only propelling my energy to choose the path of isolation and hopelessness…it was a painful journey indeed! it seemed that the entire stage of my existence was crumbling down and…I was totally unable to find the words to define myself, my situation all together…it was not that sense of ennui or boredom I’m talking about….but it was all a sense of helplessness that ultimately was engulfing all my existence at that time, I felt.…yes! The final curtain was about to fall over the stage of my life…I still remember in those days, I could do nothing, but only ruminate over those happy lullabies of my earlier days, where I used to drink life to the lees! Then, I didn`t even realize to where that hopeless journey was trailing me down? But I realized that my soul was crying aloud and there was a high need for me to help her out and to ground my being with her seed….”
She pauses for a while, tears are rolling over her cheeks;
“I don`t know…how do I interpret? But something happened and quite miraculously even during that painful journey, I got introduced with the higher purpose of my life…”
Most of the time whenever we talk about the word `depression`, quite automatically a sense of hopelessness comes around our mind. And we just start to consider this state of depression as nothing but the end of our existence. But here at this juncture, I would like to remind you that this stage, you`re considering as the end of your life is nothing, but actually the stage of a self- reflection; the stage to rewind your journey once again and to move on with a newer spirit, with a newer grace.
But unfortunately most of the time we forget about this truth and ultimately accept ourselves as only some losers to mourn over some past sorrows and regrets. But this case didn`t hold true for that drama artist. On the contrary, during that depressive state of hopelessness she ultimately managed to free herself up and inspired her inner self to speak for her own voice. The same stage, she was scared of a few days back, finally proved to her as the ultimate place of her soul`s freedom. And here in lies the miracle; the miracle of moving on and emerging before the audience in a newer way, with a greater spirit, with a newer mark!
Are you depressed? May be you`re only at the crossroad:
On a superficial level, the word `depression` may bring along a sense of hopeless, a never ending journey from where escape is utterly impossible. But if we probe deep into the matter with a compassionate heart, quite automatically we may perceive that this depression is nothing, but only an existential crisis that a wounded soul suffers from. It is the crisis of deprivation, I feel, a yearning to be grounded with your soul`s real essence. And in that sense this depressive stage is nothing, but only a crossroad, I feel to cover up. May be, in other way to perceive, a meeting point to reflect yourself on a greater mirror.
Instead of grieving over some sorrows and regretting over the loss, this stage of depression may also be taken as a stage where you can pause for a while, allowing yourself to perceive your soul`s voice. In that sense, this stage may also be considered as a newer beginning. A stage where you may come with all such questions like; “who are you?” or “where do you come?” And the moment you come along with all such questions quite automatically an existential crisis begins. But now it`s completely your choice how to handle this situation? Is it the stage to mourn over some past grief or a stage to know yourself in a self- reflective manner?
The choice is yours. But trust me, all this excruciating pain and suffering, all that come along with this state of depression is not to hold you back, not to belittle your existence, but I feel this is the divine protection itself to make you stronger enough, reminding you of your spiritual existence and especially preparing your soul to evolve in a newer way. And yes! Here in lies the miracle itself!
In a deeper way to interpret this stage is actually a stage of transformation where a soul suffers a lot from an agonizing pain and continues to struggle internally. Actually it is that state of utter incongruence when the soul is not anchored with her true sense of being. And the consequent result is nothing, but only a spell of hopelessness.
But remember, it is actually that state of a crossroad where you need to pause for a while, in order to allow your inner self to be grounded with the truth of your existence. And trust me, you will definitely get that divine protection that your soul yearns for, even being in that utter state of hopelessness. In a deeper way to interpret this stage of depression is actually a stage of an abandoned soul who is continually struggling to be grounded with her true being, but unfortunately every time encountering with a failure. But remember, it is that actual state where quite unknowingly of yourself, you`re gradually shedding off your old identity and preparing your inner self to evolve in a stronger way, more in a self- reflective way. And as a result of that transformation comes with a divine protection, bringing you back to your soul`s heritage, introducing your inner self with the true purpose of your life.
Depression: a stage of getting introduced with your spiritual existence:
In a deeper way to interpret the depressive stage can be considered as something like a gateway to know yourself in a self- reflective way; a stage to behold yourself on a greater mirror and to know the hidden worth of your soul once again. It is that dark phase of your life that has that capacity to lead you towards a meaningful realization to perceive your soul`s choice in a deeper way of understanding. In an actual sense this depression is nothing, but the deep agonizing pain of a wounded soul who is trying to search the meaning of her existence but continually failing to do so.
And mostly during this journey of failure, most of the souls suffer from this loss of being abandoned from their real self. In that sense, depression do have a meaning indeed. In a way, I feel this state of depression is nothing, but only a divine protection to make you feel that you`re strong enough to hold your existence, you`re strong enough to create your own shelter with the help of your higher self quite like that drama artist who in spite of having lost the last hope of life, once again chose to come out of that depressive state and allowed her soul to spread her wings in a newer way of survival. She didn`t choose to leave her performance, rather preferred to be on the stage with all her inner strength and newer exuberance.
“Yes! It was that turning point of my life…a catastrophe indeed…a moment of reflection when life told me to pause for a while and to ask myself… Is it the way I wish to lead my life? I wish to feel my existence? And the moment these questions arrived into my mind, quite unknowingly of myself I started to become aware of my spiritual existence…all my old identities seemingly started to fade away and once again I started to feel that Nature is demanding something different from me…Yes! That was the moment of my rebirth! A moment of transformation, trans- creation indeed!”
These were her last words when we met her for the last time at that hotel room of Chennai after a concert. I still remember her face, filled with content and satisfaction. That was not the satisfaction of her victory, but a satisfaction of reconciling with her soul, I felt that time; a satisfaction to visit her home after a long time of arduous struggle and bereavement.
This state of depression actually introduces before us the truth and reality of our existence, reminding us of that spiritual truth; the truth of our existence, the truth of our life as well. The more we confront the dark realities of our life, the more we get to know where in lies the hidden worth of our inner selves. We get to know that we`re nothing but only the spiritual beings in human forms. And I feel, the more we encounter these loss and grief, the more we may feel that there is a hidden truth, always lurking within our entity and that hidden truth is nothing but the truth of soul itself! The truth that every time reminds us of our spiritual existence and even during the time of utter hopelessness, whispers into our ears;
“Now it`s time to move on…now it`s time to see yourself in a newer way…and to transform and evolve your energy with a newer grace of enlightenment!”
Let`s surrender your depressed self to that universal power of intelligence:
During that state of depression your ego may continually hark you back, may break you down and impel you to ask yourself; “Why me? Why Me?” It may also make you feel overwhelmed, sometimes may indulge you to take some fatal decisions. But trust me dear, if you allow your ego to interpret this situation, you`ll definitely bring along a total mess into your life. Instead of allowing your ego to solve out the matter, allow your soul to intervene. Yes! It`s only your soul who has the power to lift you up and hold your hand once again for a newer life to grow. And here in lies the magic! The magic of your spiritual existence! The magic of shedding off your old identity and evolve yourselves with the rhythm of your soul`s choice!
At this juncture, once again I would like to remind you that walking down the path of hopelessness and despair during this stage of depression may also be considered as a gateway to embark on a newer journey, a gateway to revisit your inner wisdom once again and to introduce yourself with the truth of life itself. And I feel this can only be possible if you surrender your higher self to the truth of that universal power of intelligence. As therein lies the magic, the magical power of your soul itself!
And I feel the more you start to believe on this universal power of intelligence, the more you can perceive within that your ordinary consciousness is gradually transcending towards that state of higher consciousness. And in that higher state of consciousness, quite automatically you can feel that you`re not lonely in this tough world of sustenance. Rather, you`ve that power inside to grow according to the universal law of Nature itself.
In that sense this state of depression is not like that state to mourn over some past sorrows, rather a state of reflection indeed, a state to sit face to face with your real self an ask itself; “Is it the exact way, you wish to lead your life?” And I`m sure you`ll definitely get your answer back. But what you need to do is to surrender your higher self to that truth of universal power of intelligence. And this complete surrender can only bring a change within your entity. Even this surrender can only help you to come out of that depressive state and once again can make you feel that you too have a power within to stand your ground, you too have a gracious light inside your entity that can wipe out all the dark pitchy clouds of hopelessness and despair.
And the moment you surrender yourself to that divine power instead of mourning over the loss, you`ll definitely feel that bliss within. This feeling cannot be defined in words, but only to perceive within. Then you`ll no longer be a wounded soul only to be humiliated, but a soul very much close to that universal divine power of intelligence; a soul very much open to receive the messages sent by that power to her entity.
And here in lies the miracle! Here in lies the power of self- recognition, the power of having a proper self- reflection on a newer mirror of enlightenment. And here in lies the true power of your soul itself!
