image: Debarati Ray
“It seemed like a dark tunnel, I was walking through! There was no one to hold my hand, no one to talk with…but deep within, I heard a voice…though mumbling it had been…but I was sure enough that it had been that special voice that could help me out to overcome that dark tunnel all through ever…and trust me, it was not only a voice indeed, but a sparkling candle I felt to enlighten me towards that path of Truth, towards that path of divine consciousness from where I came and will be merged into…” She paused for a while, then continued; “On that very moment, I didn`t know whose voice was that…but deep within I was sure of the fact that she was no one, but must be my foster mother for whom I still have this existence… this precious existence that continually reminds me of who I’m. Do you want to know who my foster mother is?”
She said nothing, but closed her eyes. Tears rolled down over her cheeks and she only gazed at the evening sky, may be to feel the tranquility, may be to feel that essence that she has within, since the day of eternity. Then said; “She`s is no one, my dear…she`s my ideal friend, my guide; my Soul indeed!”
The stars kept smiling over the sky. The wind was blowing in its natural way. On that day I couldn`t ask her any further question, but only chose to feel the serenity, within much like her.
Actually during those days I was at Pondicherry for fifteen days where quite fortunately I met her during one of my beach walks at morning. And within a few days only through some short conversations, I started to feel that she too has a voice like me. We started to meet at regular intervals and quite unknowingly of her, during one of those regular beach walks, she confessed a hidden truth of her life; the truth of choosing the life of a simple painter, negating her so called successful life of a highly paid job of engineer! Yes! This was the truth of her existence; the truth of her soul`s voice indeed!
Let`s contemplate within and feel your Soul once again:
You may be surprised a bit, even may feel how is it possible for a lady of aged between forty five to leave her job altogether and choose the path of her soul`s calling? Is it really wise to take this decision, coming at this age? Or is it nothing, but only an irresponsible approach to life? If these questions are coming into your mind and asking you to think in a logical way, I would rather remind you at this stage that our soul has nothing to do with a linear, logical pattern. Rather, she has her own voice, her own rhythm, her own vitality and reality indeed! Yes! And here in lies her magic itself!
In a deeper way to interpret, our soul is that invisible pearl inside our entity, that inner space of our consciousness who is continually guiding us to behold our reflection, continually helping us to perceive who we`re in reality. It is not a thing to be touched, but an essence to be felt within; an essence to feel the depth of your being, transcending your consciousness towards the path of divine intelligence. In a way, it is that great womb from where you`ve come into your earthly existence and where you`ll be merged into after this mortal life. And the more you delve within your unconscious, the more you can feel the infinite power and abundant possibilities, lurking beneath the depth of your psyche, the more you can feel where in lies your true calling, where in lies the true meaning of your existence.
Though on a superficial level a question may hinder your mind; “Who am I? Am I only a mortal body groveling over this earth with all my mortal existence? Or am I an invisible entity, intensely alive with all my presence?”
But if you probe more into your unconscious in a deeper way you can feel where in lies that limitless dimension of eternity. There you cannot feel the borderline in between your inner and outer experience. Then only your soul will open out to the truth of that Infinite and quite spontaneously your ordinary consciousness may start to transcend itself towards that path of universal intelligence. And here in lies the miraculous power of your soul, the transcendental reality of your existence as well where being grounded with your center is nothing, but an opportunity to evolve yourself. And the moment, when every perception of your inner experience starts to flow in a natural way, quite automatically you can feel where in lies the true purpose of your existence.
And I feel, the more you probe deep into your unconscious, the more you`ll get aligned to your inner purpose; the more you`ll get awakened to the truth of that universal intelligence from where you came and will be merged into. Contemplating within and perceiving that inner purpose is nothing, but feeling your divine presence once again and getting aligned to your soul`s purpose.
I still remember those last words of that lady;
“Actually that night came to me as some sort of revelation… a blessing perhaps! And all on a sudden I got realized that here I`m for a special reason…I just closed my eyes and quite spontaneously, the wilderness of that nocturnal beauty started to paint her up with a newer brush, on a newer canvas.. I didn`t know how, but it happened and deep within my heart I started to feel that the entire universe was trying to whisper into my ears and asking me to be in my real essence!”
Yes! A revelation, a blessing it was that ultimately helped her to paint the wilderness of that night on her canvas not only to explore the artistic self, lurking beneath her entity, but also to respond to her soul`s calling that had been continually harking her back to ground herself to her true center. As soul`s calling is nothing, but another form of homecoming where your entity finds the eternal solace that it was searching for a long period. And the more you probe deep into your unconscious, the more you`ll get aligned to that special type of consciousness and the more you can feel that place where your soul resides. And here in lies the magic itself; the magic of an altered state of consciousness where our souls are open and we`re able enough to perceive the true meaning of our life, our existence itself.
Let`s channelize your consciousness towards the truth of divine intelligence in a spontaneous way:
Though in a linear, logical way of understanding, surrendering to your soul`s choice may appear before the world as something unrealistic, but the more you probe deeper into your unconscious, the more you can realize what `more` lies ahead, beyond the temporal, beyond the physical, beyond the mundane! And the moment you get aligned to that inner truth, quite spontaneously your sole purpose will come to the fore and you`ll get realized that you`ve a spiritual existence, more than this mundane body.
Contemplating within, perceiving the real meaning of your existence and surrendering your entity to your soul`s choice is not only going through a psycho- spiritual journey, but also preserving within that ultimate truth of universal intelligence. As I feel, the moment we get detached from our soul`s calling, we actually get detached not only from our center, but also from our ideal purpose and consequently stuck ourselves in this labyrinthine spell of meaninglessness, once again.
Surrendering to your soul`s choice is nothing, but to feel your inner experience once again and emerging before the world with your real nature, strengthening your intuitive self and discovering that eternal chord with which you need to be grounded. Yes! It has been the center of your being and coming back to this center is nothing, but cleansing the doors of perceptions, getting aligned to that higher purpose of existence itself and reconciling with that universal power of divine intelligence in order to restore the balance within.
Surrendering to your soul`s call has the power to heal your entity as never before:
On a very first hand, this surrender may create some incongruence within your entity. You may start to feel some gaps, some lacks in between your outer and inner experiences. But gradually you start to realize where in lies the difference. You start to feel that this surrender surely has some different meaning within, some special purpose not only to enlighten yourself to the truth of that divine intelligence, but also to evolve your entity entirely towards a newer direction; a direction of true emergence.
Quite gradually you start to realize that your ordinary consciousness is getting aligned with a special type of consciousness and there you need not to be conscious of what is going on around the outer sphere of perception. But deep within, you can feel that your inner quietude is perceiving that experience in awed silence. And quite spontaneously you`ll start to realize where in exactly lies your soul`s power of true emergence; where in lies the true power of becoming what your soul prefers you to be. And in this state of consciousness gradually you`ll get more attuned to the spiritual dimension of your existence, being in full harmony with the divine essence within yourself.
And trust me, the more you surrender yourself to your soul`s calling, the more you start to heal your heart not only by strengthening your center once again, but also bringing yourself back to your ultimate root of existence. And the more you get awakened and enlightened to the universal truth of your spiritual existence, more you start to explore where in lies the actual mystery of life itself. Moreover, surrendering to your soul`s calling not only helps you to emerge before the world in your real essence, but also guides you to be anchored with your own essence, true to your being.
But most of the time in order to fit ourselves in this so called parameter of success and progression, we tend to forget about this soul`s calling and consequently fall under the trap of incongruence and that related depression. And the more we get disconnected from this soul`s calling, the more we get frustrated enough and as a result of that we`re not only separated from our ground of being, but also failed to discover the truth of or existence as well. As grounded with our being is nothing, but a reconciliation with the divine force that we already have within, since the time of eternity.
So in a simpler way to interpret, surrendering to your soul`s choice is nothing, but accepting who you truly are and being an individual candle of your own authentic self. And this not only builds your foundation once again, but also transforms your depressed self into a newer one where the dark, pitchy clouds of suffering quite automatically paint them up with some newer, vibrant colors in a newer rhythm and once again, you start to feel that you too have a special existence. Moreover, you start to feel that you`re not only a mundane body, but also a spiritual being with an eternal existence. And it`s possible only when you`ll be able to feel your soul`s voice within, ground yourself to your center and perceive where in lies the grace of truth and eternity.
In this connection, I would remind you another fact i.e. the painting at that reflective night came to that lady as a canvas, I feel. And there only her soul could find that brush to paint herself in a newer way. There you cannot find any logical linearity or any rational understanding of it. But there, the Art itself spoke of its aliveness, spoke of its eternal beauty, grace and truth. And here in lies the magic itself, the magic of healing one`s heart, the magic of perceiving the truth of eternity; the magic of our Being, our existence as well. That painting was not only a painting to hold the beauty of that night, but it was something special that was very much aligned to her soul`s yearning. And it was all because of her soul, she ultimately got abled to discover her center once again and to emerge before the world in her true essence.
Remember, you`re not alone but your soul is always with you:
Surrendering to your soul`s choice is not only choosing your inner experiences as the ideal form of realization, but also preserving a harmony within and guiding your unconscious in a way to create something out of nothing.
Actually in this modern cybernetic civilization, quite often we fail to find our ideal purpose. And this failure can also be considered as one of the deprivations at the spiritual level. Our souls yearn for something, but we run after something else without properly knowing what our ideal purpose in this world of existence is. Every time, we run after something. Yes! An endless run it has been but we never find that ideal purpose for which we`re born.
But a complete surrender to our soul allows our entity to flourish in a newer way and invites our heart, once again to speak with the depth. As a complete and honest surrender to your soul`s choice is nothing, but ascending your entity towards that highest truth of universal intelligence and evolving yourself once again towards a self- reflective journey in a fruitful and constructive way.
“The painting at that blessed night was neither an escape nor a confinement to me, but it all along came to me as a reconciliation, as something very much close to my heart…” That lady said gently and closed her eyes in deep serenity.
Truly, here in lies the magic of surrendering yourself to your soul`s choice, surrendering yourself to the enigmatic life force that you`ve within, since eternity. There you may not get that much material prosperity to be fitted into this so called society of progression and success, but there you can feel that divine grace, within to behold yourself in a newer way, in spite of all the negativities surrounding your life. As our soul is only that phoenix itself to ground our entity with its ideal purpose, gives us that faith and power to endure all kinds of sufferings and whispers into our ears;
“Come, get up my dear! Life is not to mourn, but to dance, believe and explore your potential… to feel yourself worthy of it!”
On that very evening nothing happened that much. But both of us preferred to close our eyes. And deep within my heart I somehow felt that my inner experience is getting aligned with an enigmatic force, surrounding the entire universe. I didn`t know why but I felt it like a bliss; a guidance, perhaps that was coming deep within much like my soul`s heritage, I felt. Much like my mother, my home to reconcile!
