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Time changes, circumstances change in this world, but there`ll be still some energies that may never fade away, rather always embrace your entity with a newer compassion, with a newer grace, with a newer meaning of humanity as well. And here in lies the mystery of that special something, the enigma of its divinity, the power of its unconquerable strength that will never allow you to belittle yourself, to make yourself feel as only a feeble, earthly body without any strength. And that special something is nothing but `Love` itself; the real love, the power of its eternal nature that never allows your heart to hold back. Never allows your soul to lose that freedom that knows no boundaries, knows no reason to be frustrated by some external happenings. Instead helps you to know how to be calm and serene, within aligning yourself to that ultimate, eternal intelligence that surrounds the entire universe and your being as well.
In this blog, I would like to invite you into a different world where you may feel that love is not something to be enjoyed as some sort of momentary pleasure, or seeking appreciations and appraisals from others, rather something to seek within, to feel within and permeate its fragrance around every corner of your surroundings in a way where you can feel blessed and happy with yourself and you may not have to feel lonely when no one is appreciating you. As by the course of time, you may get to know what the actual `love` is and how it is already integrated within your entity, since the primordial time of existence. And at that very moment, you may start to feel that it is nothing but a magical energy that is eternally trying to lift you up from the ashes of deprivations from where life used to mock at you, used to make you feel that your life is nothing but only a fragile existence of your own. Here, in this blog I would like to remind you that love is nothing but acts as a pain killer to heal the wounds and guide your soul in a different way where you can perceive that your consciousness is leading you to a higher purpose, true to your being, true to your spiritual existence. And it can be possible only when we will start to love ourselves not at the cost of depriving others but loving and nourishing ourselves in order to know our true worth and channelizing our consciousness in a right accord to feel the bliss, the divinity within.
Recognizing the `Inner You` is the only way to fall in love with yourself:
In this contemporaneous age, where all the time we are in a rat race, running after something and seeking appreciations from others, often and on we forget to listen to our heart`s message. And as a result of that we start to feel the lack inside and eventually we get depressed and come to the conclusion that we`re not getting any appreciations or love from others, the way we deserve, totally forgetting the fact that we don`t need any love from the outer world as we`re already lovable and have that power of love, within, very much deep and profound and it`s aligned to us, since eternity. So what we need to do is only to feel the soft mumblings of our heart and to follow the silent footsteps of our soul who knows the secret of how to love our entity without any conditions, without any measures.
I feel, love is nothing but a divine power that we all have inside ourselves. But most of the time we forget the fact and fall under the trap of our false ego and beg for an external mirror to see ourselves, while in reality we already have that mirror within in order to have that proper self- reflection, in order to bring back that balance and harmony that we`ve lost in this contemporaneous age of rate race. But one simple thing you need to remember that loving yourself is not possible unless and until you get a proper recognition of yourself, your true worth and purpose on this planet. As love is not something to seek external appreciations, rather it`s a reconciliation to your true being and coming back to the realization about your true purpose on this earth of beauty and wonder. In a simpler way to interpret what this self- love is, I would like to share some of the expressions of a solitary painter ( with whom quite fortunately, I stumbled across during my last visit at Nainital) who loved to wander around the valleys in search of a special someone, not only to bring some extraordinary shades or colors on her paintings but also to explore her inner beauty, to feel herself in a newer way, to perceive the eternal truth of divinity that she bears since the primordial time of her existence. But the fact is, at that very moment she was completely unknown of that magical power, throbbing within her, until she experienced that special energy by her own. And truly it came to her as a moment of revelation;
“It`s been a miracle when I first started to feel that there had been something beyond our ordinary perception of knowing ourselves…there`s still something that continually inspires us to feel ourselves…and on that very moment, I got realized where in lies the true worth of my life…it was truly like a miracle…before that experience I was quite unsure of the fact that I do have a loving butterfly within myself…very much caring and loving she`s…transformative, yet magical and creative in her own spark… I still remember that I used to wander around the valleys, seeking something but never found that special someone who can hold my hand without any condition. But something happened quite in a magical way and I started to feel that love is nothing to be claimed from someone else, but it is that divine blessing from the universe that we all possess within ourselves…and here in lies the mystery of our being, the miracle of Nature itself…the ideal reality of our existence as well…I still remember the rustling of those pine trees and the truth that they were trying to whisper into my ears, helping me to realize that I do have an eternal connection to that butterfly, fluttering her wings within my entity…I didn`t know why but I started to feel a serenity, within…I started to feel that finally I`ve found my home and that special someone, I was looking for to hold my hand whenever I used to walk around the valleys….and I don`t know why, I fell in love with that tiny creature, flapping its wings around and whispering into my ears how special and precious I`m for her and why I`m here on this earth…”
On a very first place this experience may seem to you as only a mystic one, perceived by that painter who was in search of someone who will hold her hand forever. But if you probe more into the deep, you can also perceive that while she was searching for that special someone, she was actually going through a phase of self- awareness. On that particular moment, she was not even sure to which direction she should have to search. But that awareness came into her quite like a sudden spark of lightening and she got realized that the special someone, she was looking for is no one from the outside world, but someone, very much close and aligned to herself. And here at this stage, once again she got realized the truth of her existence; the truth of eternity as well. And trust me whenever you start to perceive this truth of loving yourself, the truth of your existence, you need not to seek other`s attention, but you yourself can take care of that and from that very moment love may not seem to you as some sort of distant adventure, rather something very much precious and pure quite like the essence of that `inner you`. You may also start to feel that energy quite like that tiny butterfly that was continually helping her (that painter) out in order to find that ideal, divine light that we already have, within in order to feel that our life is not a bereavement, not a lack of being deprived of love but as a blessing itself with the eternal power of divine love that always takes care of us and nourishes us in a blissful and magical way.
Let`s come back to the Center and find out your eternal truth as a spiritual being:
That day I learned something from her. I learned that actually she was not searching for anyone else, rather seeking for that divine love that she already treasured within her own entity, since the time she had been on this planet as an earthly body. That night I also had a dream where I felt that I was going through a tunnel, dark it was. But someone was harking me back. I couldn’t recognize who it might be, but could feel a strong connection to that call that made me to look back. And I don`t know why at that very moment I felt it like a home, I felt it like a divine light within myself. On the very next morning when I wake up, I was quite in a trance like state. In spite of that I got realized that in that dreamy state of last night I only got introduced with my soul mate who loves me a lot and lives within me, aligned to my entity like that tiny butterfly since a long period of time, may be since eternity!
On an apparent level of interpretation it may seem to you as only a simple dream experience that one may have, but if you probe deeper into it, you can realize that it was not that sort of simple dream, instead a revelation for me; a revelation to know my little heart, to pay heed to my soul`s every word and to feel the loving vibes that are solely coming from the divine. I still remember that sweet voice, harking me back in that dream. And it was surprising enough that she was introducing herself with that name that I bear in my earthly existence, moving forward to me and whispering into my ears; “You need not to be scared in this dark dungeon, my dear! I`m by your side and will be forever to make you feel how to love yourself, how to love your entity, to feel your being, to feel yourself eternal and free!”
And on that very moment I got realized that the sweet voice, harking me back was of no one but of my soul herself, providing me that light within to have a greater vision, to feel the eternity of my existence. On that night that dream came to me to fill in the gap that I had also been experiencing like that painter and seeking for someone else to fill that void. And quite surprisingly after that night I started to feel a difference within myself. It was like, I found out the meaning of a higher calling and somehow I felt, both of my inner and outer world surprisingly started to get aligned to the infinite, leading up my consciousness towards a state of higher consciousness where I can only found the bliss, serenity and love, within. And all on a sudden I came across a realization that made me to believe, since the long period of eternity, I exist. I`m the soul itself. Nothing more, nothing less; an eternal entity, being loved by the divine, since the first stage of my existence!
You may question in surprise how is it possible to feel this way? How is it possible to sing the lore of love, while you walk alone and no one knows your name and identity? But I would rather remind you that here at this point of time, you can realize your own worth and it is the ideal way to find, where your destiny is helping you to move forward. At that very moment, you may also feel the gentle song of homecoming where your soul awaits for you to give you the loving vibes, the essence of adoration and compassion. And you can feel it all along only when you will be able to surrender yourself to the divine, to that higher source of universal intelligence who never makes any comparison or distinction to love anyone. He loves you unconditionally, what you`ve and who you`re. And here in lies the secret code of coming back to your center, recognizing the inner you, loving yourself (who you truly are) and revitalizing your energy with that higher love, coming from the universal intelligence.
One more thing that I need to make clear is that here loving yourself doesn`t mean to be self- centered and depriving others, rather this self- love has a more magical potential in itself. Moreover by the help of its magic you can transcend your consciousness in a different way and be able to believe your existence not as a mere survival but as a reconciliation with your spiritual entity where love is neither a distraction, nor an abstraction, but an ideal answer to all depressive, fearful and incongruous questions that we face every now and then in our day to day life. Loving yourself is the only easiest way to break all the illusions of external appreciations and finding peace and serenity within, rediscovering your individuality once again and inspiring yourself to be what you really are, what your soul wishes for, not that one what others want you to be.
Most of the time we get depressed whenever we seek appreciations and love from others, forgetting the fact that the moment we start to seek external appreciations, we actually start to lose our center. The more we`re getting attracted to that, the more we`re avoiding that higher calling and quite unconsciously indulging ourselves to be only a puppet at others hand. And as a result of that we`re losing our true self, true identity and quite automatically fall under the trap of depression, completely ignoring the fact that we`re more a spiritual being than a people pleaser and we`re here on this planet for a destined purpose, a purpose that is very much aligned to the ground of our being. A purpose that always inspires us to believe in ourselves and surrender to that higher love of innocence and purity, surrounding the entire universe, nourishing the entire creation, making us to realize that we`ve that strength to love ourselves to bring peace and harmony, within.
When you become a nurturer of your own, healing comes in a spontaneous way:
In this section I would like to remind you, once again that love has an enormous effect to heal a wounded soul. And this love you need not to lend from the outside world. Rather the surprising fact is, we all have that potential to heal ourselves, simply loving and caring for us. Loving ourselves will not only heal us in a spontaneous way but also it channelizes our consciousness towards that state where our deeper self may find that ground to be reunited with her true home. And there depth speaks only with the depth, allowing your intuitive sense to explore the creator within you, the sculptor of yourself, responsible enough to create your emergence, balanced and harmonious before the world.
Whenever you seek external appreciations and yearn for the love and care from others, quite unconsciously you`re ignoring the truth of your being. And at this very moment you`re reluctant enough to accept who you truly are. But if you can accept the fact; who you truly are, quite automatically you will be able to fall in love with yourself, with that eternity that you`ve within, since the primordial time of your existence.
So let`s try to accept yourself, the way you`re. Accepting what you`re and believing in your own worth is the first milestone of loving and respecting yourself. But here one thing, I would like to clear about that nurturing yourself is not possible unless and until you surrender yourself completely to the divine intelligence as it is the ultimate source of love and nurturance, since eternity. And nurturing yourself doesn`t mean to indulge your ego and depriving others, rather it means to love yourself and hold others hands too, as we all belong to the same spiritual community. Here the only truth of our existence is that we all are in communion to that universal source of intelligence. This communion always inspires us to explore ourselves, to explore the enigma that we all have within in order to get a proper self- reflection that guides us in a magical way to know ourselves and know the world, around. And here in comes the magic of true love; the love that knows no boundaries, no distinctions, but only helps you to feel how to be compassionate with yourself, with the world around and how to feel the glory of being grounded with your own essence, remaining true to your destined purpose.
One more thing that I want to evaluate here that healing is not something external to be incorporated within us, rather we all have that magical potential in ourselves. As we all are souls in a mortal body. And soul knows how to heal herself. We all are here on a spiritual quest. Our true mission is already assigned to our destiny. We`re just following the footsteps of our soul. And the ultimate truth is love, loving our entity in a way as the twilight descends over the earth and there you may feel nothing left behind, but that grace and eternity, within, inspiring you to live your life with that wilderness of your heart and evolving your soul, once again to see the stars of life, to nurture yourself with a heavenly light. I also had that experience once in my life when I felt, deep within that I`m really in love with my soul, my origin who is always by my side and keeps her promise to hold my hand as tight as she can. And on that very moment, somehow I felt that I was very much in myself. I didn`t even recollect what is my name or from where I came. The only thing on that particular moment that still I remember is my communion with myself, my connectedness with my depth. Somehow, I felt that I have been here for many years, for many lifetimes and will be forever in different dimensions, may be in different mortal bodies. But my soul will be here with the grace of that divine love who will never allow her to be bereaved and lonely, rather will always guide her, making her feel, how to heal herself with the help of this eternal connection and how to be happy and blessed forever.
And here with the help of this love and compassion gradually you may be able to feel your being and present yourself before the world in a newer way, remaining true to your destined purpose. Then you need not to seek for others appreciations, rather by that time, you yourself know better how to balance yourself and how to reconnect once again to your true home that always invites you into a different world of love, compassion and humanity. And there you need not to beg for others compliments, rather feel yourself fortunate enough, remaining true to yourself and finding that ideal way of how to evolve your soul where being empathetic is not like considering yourself as a weaker one, rather being empathetic and compassionate to yourself brings that authenticity, within. And by the help of it you can lit the candle of your being, once again to have a higher self- reflection, to heal yourself and sometimes to transform the black night of your identity into a newer dawn of self- esteem and self –love i.e. the love of light, the love of your life where eternity always holds the knot of humanity.
Let`s promise yourself to be the love of your life:
Loving yourself is not being selfish but nurturing your soul like a foster mother to grow within, to evolve your being, to be that artist who knows how to paint your life through the help of your experiences, according to the circumstances and how to lead your consciousness to that level where truth and humanity are the only means to feel your being, to fill the void that sometimes you experience. Nourishing your soul and transcending your consciousness to a higher level in a fruitful way is not an overnight project but truly an experience to undergo. Sometimes I also feel that this is more a journey than an experience, more a revelation than a realization. And that`s why we all need to keep in mind that to love ourselves is not an easy process, but a process of trusting our soul and following her footsteps in order to be in communion with the divine power of the universe.
Here I`m giving you some of the steps that you can maintain to keep yourself free and to feel the love and peace, within:
- Always try to value yourself. Remember that you`re an individual being. You`re here on this planet for a special purpose and this is your spiritual journey and that`s why you need not to be influenced by others words or what others think of you. You`ve your own mission, you`ve your own path. So if possible try to be an explorer, rather than an imitator. Try to maintain your individuality, rather than getting influenced by others words or choices.
- One thing you need to keep in mind that you`re a spiritual being, a soul with a mortal body. And your soul is very much independent and prefers change. You cannot interpret your soul`s needs and wishes in a linear, traditional way of logical understanding. It always wishes for a change according to the changing time shift, changing circumstances. So if possible, try to engage yourself in some innovative works that satisfy your soul. You can also maintain a diary of your own where you may write about all your wishes, your likes and dislikes. Whatever you feel just write it down and allow your soul to make it happen in reality in a right accord. Never try to pressurize or analyze yourself while writing about these wishes. Allow your soul to choose it wisely. And trust me, your soul will automatically choose the right things to heal herself, to evolve herself, true to her natural essence.
- Always keep in mind that the moment you start to love yourself, you`re getting appointed to a newer job of creating your soul in a newer way. From that moment you`re becoming a foster mother of your own. And trust me, this process of evaluation takes time. It`s not an overnight project, but to realize what your insight is trying to tell you. It always brings before you an opportunity to perceive your soul`s guidance and nurture yourself according to her own wish, to her own independence.
- Loving yourself who you really are and feeling the bliss, within is possible when you`re completely capable of knowing the truth and reality of your existence by the help of your own experiences and wisdom that you`ve gained all through your life. So always try to open your heart and engage yourself to those activities that can touch your soul in a deeper level.
- Another significant way to love yourself is to love the divine unconditionally and completely believing on the life forces that the divine intelligence is continually pouring on us, since eternity. Feel free to accept yourself, accept that love and divinity that is coming from that eternal source of energy. Always keep in mind that you`re not alone in this world. You`re not a single entity, but connected to the universe harmoniously, since eternity. So you need not to feel bad when someone is not appreciating you, rather feel free to believe that you`re lovable enough. If no one appreciates or loves you, the way you deserve, always try to keep in mind that there is always some special energy, watching over you and loving you unconditionally.
- Apart from keeping that soul diary you may also choose a place of your own where you can sit at your comfort and contemplate more in a deeper way. If possible, on that very moment try to concentrate only on yourself, detaching completely from the outside world. Try to feel that you`re here, at this place not to think about your surroundings but to feel yourself, feel your entity that is eternally loved and blessed. You need not to pressurize yourself to feel it. Just feel free and allow your consciousness to descend down into the depth in a spontaneous way. And I’m sure, you`ll have all the answers you`re yearning for a long period of time. You may also feel that the ideal realization that you need to have is automatically unfolding before you in a self- reflective way, in a way where you need not to seek appreciations from others but can feel where in lies the true meaning of love and compassion.
- One more important thing that I would like to remind you here that never expect anything from anyone, at any circumstances. Even try to avoid that from yourself too. Remember, you`re not an object to be compared by the so called success meter, but a soul with all her infinite potentials. Expectation always leads to frustration, indulging you to fall under the trap of depression, quite automatically. Sometimes it may happen that you`re expecting something illusive that has no ground of reality. Sometimes you may expect something from someone for whom it`s utterly impossible to meet up your expectations. So whenever you`re expecting something from someone, please keep in mind that you`re not only presenting yourself weak and vulnerable before that person, but actually you`re sabotaging your self- esteem, losing your mental peace and bringing existential crisis and a sense of lack, within yourself, while actually you`re complete with your own entity, your own worth. So if possible, try to curtail your ambitions and expectations and allow your destiny to handle the situations in a spontaneous and peaceful way.
Few years back during my stay at Pondicherry I met a lady. Quite accidentally I stumbled across that lady and came to know about an unusual habit of her. You may also be surprised to know that every night she used to write a love letter to her own. Do you want to know what was all about those letters? Some were about her reminiscences of the past and some were about her longing for a beautiful future. But the thing that moved my soul at once was certainly not those personal affairs or the usual likes or dislikes that she used to write on those letters, but the particular excerpt that she used to write at the end of every letter that still I remember was like;
“I love you my Heart… my sweet Soul… I love you unconditionally… I love you my Dear… love the way You love me… the way You feel me… the way You perceive me and giving me that strength to love Myself…once again for a newer dawn …for a newer boat to sail…”
