“It was a voice inside,
I felt —
Roaring into my ears;
`It`s no one, but only You and You
To make this change!
To shift the rudder,
To make your ground
With a marked shudder! `
I startled at once —
Didn`t know what to say,
But only closed my eyes
And felt a `Difference`
From all those lies!
Felt within my entity,
With all the truth, inside.
Then Eternity came
To embrace me once again,
To make me feel that
I`m nothing, but only-
A divine essence!”
In this materialistic world of continuous fulfillment and desires, when walking along the streets of frustrations, needs and resentments, you may feel someone`s voice, inside your unconscious, continually tempting you to present yourself as someone superior before the world. Though on a very first place, you may not recognize whose voice is this. You may even be lured by that tempting voice that is continually provoking you to present yourself before the world as a total misfit to your real self! And it is right from here, you start to misrepresent yourself before the world, sometimes to hide your real self knowingly or sometimes even unknowingly! And as a result of this misrecognition of your real self, quite automatically you start to lose your connection with your center, within and consequently become alienated from the outside world as well.
Do you want to know whose voice is this? What do you think is it really your own voice or someone else`s or of someone invisible whom you don`t know yet? If you`re fumbling a bit and cannot recognize the voice indeed, let me assure you my dear that this is a voice, coming from your unconscious. But you`re quite ignorant of that. You feel it as your own voice, while actually it is not the voice of your real self, rather a voice that`s coming from your ego, continually generating within you a desire of getting more. And it also makes you feel that all the success, you`ve achieved is nothing, but only on the basis of your own power and ownership! But in spite of all these self- aggrandizing thoughts you still may feel a lack, within. And do you want to know, what is the cause of that lack, in spite of having everything owned by yourself? The answer is; the lack you`re feeling is not the lack of your material needs, but a lack, coming from your inner self, while quite unknowingly of yourself, you`re completely absorbed into your own ego.
Here in this contemporaneous world, most of the time we tend to fall under the trap of our illusory ego selves, negating our true voice, coming from our soul and consequently lead our consciousness towards a state of utter depression. And then, only to satisfy our ego we don`t even hesitate to do any harm on others. While actually aggrandizing that ego of our unconscious is not the life itself, but only an elusive representation of a fabricated life style where we ourselves quite hopelessly choose to play over the stage of falsity and illusions as some masked players, inviting identity crisis and meaninglessness into our own existence, ultimately hindering the ideal path to feel our being in a spontaneous way with all the truth and beauty, we`ve within!
When Ego comes as an illusion to blur your thoughts in a negative way:
Right at the beginning of this section, I would like to tell you, this ego that quite unknowingly of ourselves continually influences our life is not always bad. Sometimes it also acts as a rejuvenating force, helping us to move ahead in our life, negating all kinds of dilemmas and dissatisfactions that often and on brim over our mind. In that sense it also helps us to build a proper self- esteem in order to present ourselves before the world as a socially bold person who can achieve anything against all the oddities and impediments on a regular basis.
But the problem is, it doesn`t happen always. And most of the time this ego tempts us to believe on an elusive reality that actually doesn`t have any existence at all, but only channelizes our unconscious towards a state of having a false self- reflection from where the `I` ness becomes more important than to perceive our entity with all its truth and beauty! And as result of that, quite unknowingly of ourselves we get entangled with a false, elusive identity that has nothing to do with our real selves. We start to believe that here on this earth we need to present ourselves as someone superior to others, as someone who has all the power in his/ her hand and can do anything to be successful, even sometimes at the cost of harming and degrading others only to satisfy our ego.
But what do you feel is this the ideal way to lead your life? Is this the ideal way to feel your being with all its true essence? If you`re already seeking for that answer, I would like to share with you an experience of an entrepreneur who once had been successful enough but ultimately proved himself as a failure only because of a misrecognition of his real self. In spite of having everything in his life, he was never satisfied and always craved for more, even sometimes at the cost of complaining, disrespecting and inflicting pain on others. And in that due course of aggrandizing his ego above everything, quite unfortunately he made himself a victim at the hand of his own ego. And as a result of that, quite automatically he started to lose his inner balance; his connection with his center started to fade away and it was only his ego that ultimately became dominant over his unconscious and finally managed to devour his entity in a shocking way. You may be surprised a bit, may think is this the ego itself that was only responsible for that failure or it is somehow his own thoughts that channelized his unconscious towards that totally different direction. If you`re still wandering around this question, let me assure you that it is all because of that ego of his unconscious that prompted him to think that way, prompted him to be self- centered very much that ultimately brought that fatal disaster into his life. And this was all because of this ego centered mentality, he not only lost his inner balance, but also lost his business altogether. All of his employees ultimately turned up against him. Even during those last hours of his misfortune some of his employees even heard him to shout at them; “It is not the company, but it`s Me for which you all still belong! You all have your presence indeed!” He kept on repeating those words again and again even at the face of that total disaster when there was no one to listen to his voice, except his own ego that has completely covered up his heart with a layer of dark, patchy, clouds of self- absorption, continually blocking his path to attain peace above all, but also proved for him as a detrimental force, bringing a total collapse into his entire kingdom and shaking his foundation as well.
Ego always channelizes your unconscious towards a totally different direction, keeping itself invisible from others, sometimes even keeping you unknown of its malicious effect! It not only blinds your vision, but also generates within your survival self a sense of fear. This fear is not of getting scared of anything unusual, but a fear of sustaining in this world of survival; a fear of remaining superior to others. In this connection, I would like to tell you that this ego not only hinders you to see yourself in a reflective way but also opposes you to flourish with all your real essence. And as a consequence of that quite unknowingly of yourself a superiority complex start to develop within you and once again having no option, you just surrender your entity to that frightening monster named Ego, depriving your soul`s choice altogether.
It`s only the awareness that helps you to feel who You truly are in reality:
Do you want to know where in lies the root cause of all this confusion? The root cause of that disaster, happened to that business merchant? It`s all because of that illusory ego that quite unknowingly of ourselves we indulge, within and direct our consciousness towards a totally different direction from where we cannot perceive the reality in its ideal essence, instead there the reality itself starts to appear before us as an elusive reality, a fabricated one without any real essence, making us to wander around as a hopeless survivor, seeking the answers like, `who we truly are`, `what our purpose on this earth of existence is`; but never find any exact answer to be perceived. As all the time we get ourselves captivated by the enchanting charm of our `I` ness and again and again, get entangled with a proper misperception of our true identity.
In this connection, I would like to remind you that this I` ness is nothing, but only a construction of your ego that quite unknowingly of yourself continually delves into your unconscious in an inconspicuous way. And as a result of that you can do nothing, but can only pretend to play a role of a character who is starkly different from your real self. And here in comes the dilemma, once again and that related existential crisis and meaninglessness of your identity as well. But the moment you start to recognize who you`re truly in a real sense, you may feel all this existential crisis will automatically start to fade away and quite surprisingly you start to have a self- reflection from a much deeper perspective. This experience may differ from person to person. Some of you may think this is not the ego self whose voice is continually provoking you to present yourself in a totally different way, but it`s only the real you who is actually responsible to make you feel this way. But let me assure you, the fact is not like that.
As I feel, too much dwelling over this extroverted life style can only help you to get a distorted version of your own identity where Truth starts to appear before you as an illusion and the falsified, fabricated life start to appear as the truthful one! And here in lies the mastery of your ego that doesn`t know your true worth and always tempts you to search for external circumstances, while actually Truth always resides within yourself. But the more you get involved into the external affairs, the more you start to get alienated from the real core of your being and consequently start to get entangled with your fabricated egoistic self that actually has nothing to do with the ideal reality of your existence. And this fabricated self always has a tendency to feel superior to others. Never feel, your real self has that agenda to do so. Your desire to become superior to others is not to be considered as a superiority complex as I feel. Rather, it is also an unconscious projection of your ego self that always feels insecure, within and as a result of that fear of insecurity, it always desires to be superior to others; while actually it is not the desire of your real self, but only that self- centered, image making part of your unconscious that continually demands from others and tries to promote itself before the external world as the most powerful one, while the inner core of your being always wishes for something else. But as a result of its maliciously predominant power, gradually you may start to feel that you don`t have any option rather than being dominated by that powerful monster named Ego and to feel yourself as the most powerful, yet depressed one who has everything to dominate over, but nothing to be content with, nothing to feel the bliss, within.
Most of the time, we tend to misinterpret this ego as our real self and fall under the trap of its malicious effects. Quite unconsciously of ourselves we misinterpret this ego self as the most powerful managing matron of our life and indulge ourselves to make our ground according to its whims through a continuous delving into our unconscious some negative thought patterns, making ourselves feel that it is only the `I` (the self) who is responsible for all the happenings, for all the successful deeds, while actually being totally ignorant of the true power of our inner self. But the moment you get aware of the Truth, inside quite miraculously you start to feel the oneness, within; you start to feel that you`re, you had been and will be. Moreover you start to get aligned with your presence, with your true self beyond that fabricated self that your ego used to present before the external world.
I feel, it`s not an easy task to alienate yourself completely from that ego self and know your true identity in its real essence as this ego self is also connected to your survival self and sometimes helps you to move forward in a constructive way. But most of the time it tends to negate the real power within yourself and tempts you to present yourself before the world as someone very much different from your ideal self. But the moment you start to get aware of who you really are and what true identity you have within, quite automatically you start to feel an unexpected change not only in your thought process, but also within yourself, resulting a true emergence before this world of existence with your real self. And the moment it happens, quite automatically those feelings of incongruence starts to fade away and once again, you start to accept who you`re in reality. You may start to feel that you`re an entity far beyond that self- centered egoistic image maker, far beyond the heraldic presence of that roaring voice, drumming its existence every now and then.
Do you want to know what makes you feel this way? It`s all because of an awareness that quite unknowingly of yourself has already started to grow within your entity, making you feel that you also have an identity beyond this external world, beyond this fabricated presentation of your illusory, egoistic self. And the more you get aligned with that true self, the more you start to perceive the real core of your existence, the power of the absolute Truth and your connection with the power of eternity itself; the truth of your being, the truth of your existence as well.
So whenever any negativity creeps around you, you need to be aware of the fact that the negativity is not within you. It`s absolutely external and you`re only a silent observer of it. The moment this awareness starts to grow within you, quite automatically you start to realize that it is not your real self who is creating such negativity within yourself, but it’s only your ego that through such malicious effects creating such nuisance. The moment you get aware of who you truly are, the moment you start to feel that you`re not only getting liberated from that self-centered ego self and aligning with the real core of your being but also evolving within and getting introduced with the higher purpose of your life! And here in lies the magical power of the transcendental consciousness, a consciousness that helps you to be conscious of your presence in a subjective way, but not being conscious of any external objects.
Let`s surrender your entity completely to the divine and perceive your soul:
In this contemporaneous world when all the time we get involved into our material luxuries and always seek for something more to achieve, most of the time we forget about ourselves. Here I’m not talking about that `self` which is predominantly connected to our objective consciousness, but here I`m trying to make you perceive that inner self that we all have within, since the primordial time of our existence, but never got introduced to that. And here in this section, I would like to remind you that a mere objective consciousness cannot make you feel that special enigma within your entity. If you want to feel that special power within yourself you need to be aware of who you truly are. And this awareness cannot come with the help of mere objective consciousness. As it always distract your mind with some external matters that has nothing to do with your real self.
Trust me that `real you`, that `inner you` doesn`t need any external appreciations, doesn`t need to be categorized under the veil of any specific name, doesn`t need to be conditioned by the typical objective consciousness, but to be felt, within, to perceive its stillness, its every presence; the unconditional, unveiled Truth of its eternity! And here in lies the essence of your essential nature, your true being that only holds the truth; the truth of your soul, the truth of that divine essence that you`ve within, since eternity. And it`s only with the help of this awareness, the pure consciousness, quite automatically will start to emanate from you not only to evolve your soul in a newer way, not only to grow, within once again, but also to mend that discord that once startled your entity, to awaken your being with that ideal truth of your existence that never asks you when or from where did you come, but can make you feel that you`re already content with everything; you had been, you`re and will be with all your presence!
And here in lies the power of your pure consciousness that helps you to feel your cosmic presence, your true essence as a spiritual being. It helps you to feel beyond this tangible realm of earthly existence. On a very first place you may not see any difference. But if you probe deep within, you can feel where in lies the true worth of this pure consciousness. Then you need not to think about the time span, you need not to bother about from where did you come or from where you will be, but you can feel all your presence, within and your connection to the truth of eternity!
Some of you may consider it as a mystic experience, some of you may see it as something unreal, beyond this tangible frame of reality. But if you probe deeper within, you can feel that you`re nothing, but only that pure consciousness, beyond any form, beyond any time frame, but only an existence with all your spiritual essence! And the more you probe deep within your entity, the more you`ll be able to perceive that inner space that is absolutely beyond your tangible form and identity, beyond those materialistic needs and desires of your ego, beyond that fear that you`re losing yourself. On a very first place you may have a feeling that you`re losing yourself, you`re not getting that everything that can satisfy the so called materialistic hunger of your conscious self. But if you probe more within your entity, quite automatically you may feel that you`re getting aligned to that pure consciousness in order to feel that perfect stillness within your being; moreover with that formless and timeless dimension, with the truth of eternity, with that truth of universal divine intelligence! And the more you get introduced with that truth of divinity within, the more you get awakened to the true purpose of your existence, to that destined purpose that your soul wishes to have for her ideal emergence, for her true evolution. And that evolution not only helps you to heal yourself from all the wounds and sufferings, not only helps you to emerge before the world with your true essence, but also enables your inner experience to channelize your unconscious in a constructive way in order to anchor your being in a right accord. Moreover to be reunited with the ground of your being and to be evolved, once again, being true to your inner essence!
And here in lies the true magic of living your life with your true essence! The moment you start to feel this pure consciousness within yourself, quite automatically you start to get aligned to the truth of your inner essence and then only you can feel that your life is not a fruitless existence, as something of a mere survival, clinging around your ego and materialistic desires, rather something to be felt within, something to behold in a self- reflective manner. In order to evaluate this point more in an explorative way, I would like to share with you a personal experience of a lady who through the help of an inner experience ultimately managed to have a self- reflection that finally proved to her as a sort of revelation itself; a revelation of her inner essence that she had within, but never felt before even in her seventy two years of age. In her own words it was really something higher than this tangible realm of understanding;
“It was really a different experience for me; an experience to feel within, an experience to feel that inner space and to be aligned to that. On that moment I was very much within me! I was not even conscious of my surroundings, but very much conscious of the fact that I am. It was not the temporal me, throbbing within to emerge in a newer way, but the Inner Me who had been and would be, I felt…my physical body was breathing itself, but I was not even conscious of that…you may think I was losing myself…but it was not like that, it was a special moment when my inner stillness appeared before me as a mirror itself and all on a sudden I got introduced with my real self…and the moment I got introduced to that real self, quite automatically all the temporal dimensions started to dissolve at once and I started to feel that I’m nothing, but only an essence, the consciousness after all!”
Yes! It was the consciousness that ultimately leaded her to feel the truth of her life, the truth of her existence as well. And that truth was far beyond of her tangible existence, far beyond of every material desires that every moment held her back.
Trust me, it is the consciousness indeed by the help of which, you once again will get aligned to that highest truth, to that truth of divine intelligence and once again, your soul will have the opportunity to open up to the truth of eternity as well. And once again you start to feel that you neither have any outer world nor the external world has any connection to your spiritual being, but you`re and already aligned with the Infinite!
