“Towards that hilly road/ where the tracks you feel, serpentine a bit/ never feel gloomed inside/ just throw off your masks/ take some rest awhile/ there you may find a lake to confront/ crystal clear, I see/ and there at once, you may feel that eternal grace/ your pearl inside!”
This poem came into me quite in an unexpected way , during my last visit at Nainital . During my stay over there for a couple of weeks , I was very much moved by the mesmerizing beauty of that place. A mysterious charm, I felt in it . Whenever I used to climb over the mountains , crossing over the ridges, I used to hear a special kind of symphony , coming out of those dense pine forests . It was not any chirping of those birds or the lingering of any stream, but it was all along a silence , very much pure and real . There I didn`t need any extra filtered glasses to put on my eyes to feel it . But a blessed feeling came into my heart, quite surprisingly to feel that beauty of nature and to believe the truth of eternity in that beauty.
Often those labyrinthine hilly roads used to lead me towards a totally different landscape from where I see the mesmerizing beauty of those ice capped mountains and the serenity of the resting valleys as well . Usually during the afternoons, I used to take that walk , when the twilight preferred to descend on the valleys with her silent steps, allowing the nature to feel her own color, own essence once again, after a days break . I didn`t know why , but somehow I started to feel a different enigma , a different energy , sparkling within my entity, after visiting that place. I started to connect to that beauty in a natural way. Somehow, deep into my heart , I started to feel , the vast expansion, overhead and the deep forest were trying to tell me an eternal truth of their own. I was heavily overwhelmed. I felt that my entity was trying to merge with them. That afternoon, I didn`t know why but tears came into my eyes, in a surprising way . The vast expansion and those pine trees just appeared before me as my only guide , whispering into my ears ; “just , peep inside !” I stare up at the sky , crystal clear. I gazed. Only an unknown bird was soaring high. I was standing still, over that ridge , waiting for something to happen . But nothing tangible happened on that dusky afternoon. Only silence crawled over the valley . And I found my answer through this poem , quite magically in the form of a nutshell to fill my heart, my entity to talk again with my ` Real Me`, my primordial existence.
When a different consciousness makes you to visit the Real You
On that very moment the outside world was somehow completely disappeared from my consciousness . I was still standing over the ridges , staring at the sky , vast and eternal , looking over those blue mountains . It was a magical experience for me . I was completely unable to recollect , who I was or for what reason I went over there? It was a moment when time stopped for a while , bringing a canvas before me to feel some special energy, within. Then the external coated form of my conscious self was no longer accompanying her, rather a mysterious energy of some profound depth , continually providing my pathways towards an unknown territory and guiding me to descend more down into the depths of my being . I didn`t know why, but on that very moment, I was very much in myself . No external glitters or any external pretense , I needed to put on my face. Rather, I was very much with that nature of serenity , with that special energy, germinating within my entity a deeper truth of realization , resulting the birth of that poem, I already shared at the beginning .
You may name it as a mystic experience or something like some creative spark . But I would rather rename it as a revelation, a self- reflection . And I thought my much awaited longing to be grounded with my own entity, to be aligned to the ultimate divine energy ( An Energy that not only surrounds our being but also surrounds the entire universe ) once again, had ultimately found its expression in that ineffable way. But , still you may think , there`s a mystery . I also admit that . As that revelation was entirely a personal experience to be felt, it doesn`t mean that you all may have this experience . But , I`m quite sure that some of you may feel that there`s is an unseen world , outside of this world of tangibility and we all are somehow connected to that . Quite in an unexpected way , your existence always is trying to push you that way . Some of you may call it destiny , some even may say it as a conscious choice of some decision that your present situations and circumstances need . But I would rather contemplate it as a spontaneous , flow of a stream , flowing within yourself that knows no boundaries of time and age and knows no logic or rationality , but only reminds you the truth of your identity, the truth of your being , the `Real You`, since eternity .
Pretense always leads you towards a state of Self – Betrayal
Have you ever felt in yourself a burden , while you`re juggling in between two thoughts ? I think , most of us do face this , while the time comes to take any vital decision regarding our fundamental security . Your one thought may continually push you forward to make some pretense , to smile, just to present yourself as the happy one before the world , while another thought may tell you not to smile as actually you`re not happy, inside . Do you want to know, why does it happen for most of us ? There`s also a mystery in it that I want to lay bare . And the mystery lies in our usual tendency to stand before the world with external pretense that quite unconsciously beguiles us to embrace a false identity that ultimately may lead us towards a state of self- betrayal. While you`re wearing that false mask, you`re not only suppressing that `Real Me`, within but also hindering the spontaneous flow of an interstitial stream, flowing within yourself, since eternity. In a way , it may be considered as belittling the natural order of the universe to which your higher Self , your soul is connected.
But the point is that , in spite of all the pretenses and external make overs you can not resist your soul to emerge in her own way as she is very much independent in nature . Here in comes the dilemma in between the Pretentious You and the Real You , once again , leading you towards a land of meaningless existence where at the end of the day , you yourself can not sustain with your false identity any longer . It may mock and laugh at you . And there you may come across with another defeating image of yourself . It may stare at you with an unpleasant gesture .You may be frightened by its voice ; “ Aren`t you not tired enough ? The veil is no longer needed . Just throw it off ! Some special Energy is looking over You . Let`s allow it to come! Be Brave and courageous as you once been .”
I feel , you`re eager enough to know how your defeating Self can share these thoughts . I`m here my dear to solve out this puzzle too . It may appear before you as your defeating self on a first glance . But if you probe deeper, you may behold an image of your `Real You `, deeply buried inside your entity as a rectifying energy to inspire you to move beyond this dilemma, beyond this pretenses and self betrayals and show the world your real identity. Some people may like it or not . But if you`ve a deep believe in your heart that you`re accepting yourself , the way you`re, then there`ll be no need for any further justifications . While you know the truth of your being, of who you really are , you just need no clarifications from the external world.
Never allow your ` Little Me` to hinder the path of your ` Real Me`
This dilemma not only pushes you towards a huge existential crisis , but also quite unconsciously you`re projecting an unwanted image of `Little me`, within yourself that continually hindering your path , questioning your purpose and existence on this planet and at the same time , building an architecture of self – doubt and lower self – esteem , from where one can only envisage anxiety and depression . But , remember one thing that this `Little me` is nothing but the projection of your own Internal mind that runs with the undercurrent of that false ego identity . It always holds you back to emerge in your true gesture , in your true color and makes you feel feeble and timid. There`s is an usual tendency of this `Little Me` to create some mental conflicts resulting a lack of self – confidence and separation from one`s true being , suppressing your inner light , the truth of your existence, the ` Real You`.
I think , now you`ve a blueprint of what your `Little Me` is and how it works in an inconspicuous way to belittle you , not only in front of the society but also in front of yourself , as well . But , I can assure you , my dear that this Little Me is nothing but a veil itself , an apparent shell of your exterior form , where most of the time, you would prefer to couch , in a leisurely way , without knowing to which fatal direction it`s trying to push you further . But , there’s another mystery brimming inside . And the mystery is the real You , itself . In spite of the former`s resistance she never looses her grip on you . We all have that `Real Me` , inside of us . This `Real Me` is the only and the actual truth of your being, connected to your higher Self, where your soul resides . And she never let you feel , defeated or depressed . Whenever any incongruence happens resulting an inner conflict within yourself, you may feel someone is trying to back you up , whispering into your ears; “ Here I`m for you . Your Real Self. The truth of your being . The purpose of your existence. That magical bell, reminding you to reconnect yourself to your true Identity .” She never allows you to be couched in your empty shell , rather motivates you to move further and stand on your own ground with whatever potentials you have. She knows all your worth and helps you to channelize your energy towards that direction where you may not need any kind of false masks , rather may feel a transcendental consciousness , continually preparing your being for your ideal destiny. Then no longer you may have to feel yourself , feeble-minded or brow beaten, rather feel content in yourself , shedding off your old skin , that false ego identity . Then the bold image of this `Real Me` will rejoice you once again, expressing her desire; “Lets get reconciled with Me! Here the Ground of your Being awaits for you . May be your Soul! She`s calling you for some special mystery to unfold ….”
Let`s create your Soul ; recreate your identity , once again
In order to explicate this point I want to share with you an unforgettable experience that I had on a chilly November night . That was a moonlit night. And for some reason I was a bit disturbed . My mind was absolutely not cooperating with my work . It was continually jerking me up to go out and enjoy that nightly charm over there . As a result of that, I couldn`t resist myself from that calling and quite hypnotizingly reached over the terrace, quite adjacent to my study room . But as I thought that the sky would be crystal clear, it was not like that . Though the moon was still gleaming with her own grace . But the fluffy clouds were hovering here and there , quite unknowingly trying to hide her face , trying to cover her up for a while . Sometimes they had been able to do so , sometimes not , but never been able to hide her completely . That night, quite unexpectedly, I learned a wonderful truth ; the truth of eternity itself . I realized that those unwelcomed dark , patchy, shades of clouds are nothing but like all those negative emotions and judgmental thoughts that we quite unconsciously create within us from some external sources or sometimes for some external comments , while completely, remaining unknown of the fact , that these thoughts , quite capriciously beguiling our Real Self to be a slave at the hand of that ` Little Me` . At that very moment , I didn`t know why , but find a deep solace in my heart . That night, the moon was still bright , standing in her own beauty with that inherent majesty , that real identity , she bears , since eternity.
I think , you already got my point , what I`m trying to lay bare . This same case holds true for our existence as well . The more we indulge on that false identity of ourselves , the more we`re getting closer to the loss of our true selves. And this false self – cognition can ultimately lead you towards a state of self deprivation, a deprivation from your heart , a deprivation from your soul , your true identity as well . The calling of your soul is as pure as a new born baby . She doesn`t know how to pretend or when to put up all those masks , but only knows that she has to sing a song of life where heart`s desire is the only expression to be perceived . False glitters and pretenses may make you feel attractive or acceptable for a while . But , think deeply. Is it the true identity , you longed for ? If your answer is Yes ! So , just go for it. I don`t have that much to say you . But , if not , then try to contemplate . Your `Real Me` will definitely answer you back .
And here in lies the true and eternal meaning of our being . This is not only the celebration of being oneself , but the celebration of life itself . Because now you need not to bear that tattered old shell of pretenses. Now , your heart is open and your soul is truly aligned to her true purpose of helping you out to recognize the true sculptor of your being . And when this recognition is complete your soul can find her way, back to her natural essence and can evolve more in a way , where she can be merged with the truth of eternity without any pretense .
A sweet way to rediscover the Real You
When tangibility fails to utter , fails to explain , then a transcendental consciousness may arise to find its way . Some of you may feel this at some points of your life when your existence questions you “ What is your True Self ? Where in lies the reason , for Me to be with you ?” This question may come , when you`re separated from your soul , the true essence of your being. But if you probe deeper in search of that inner seed you may find the answer . If possible , stand in front of nature . Ask yourself . Whatever you`re doing is it justifying your true worth ? Is it making your soul content and happy as ever ? Is it bringing peace and allowing you to feel your being , once again ? You may find all these answers in the beauty of nature itself . Just take a deep breath . You may feel that your entity is trying to guide you something, may be in the form of an intuition, guiding you to explore the highest truth of your existence . And there in lies the eternal truth of being yourself , remaining true to your purpose that your soul has always longed for. Once again , you may feel your heart is beating in its natural way, humming around your entity and inviting you to embrace your ` Real Me` not only for yourself, but for the entire world as well .
