“ I know you`re tired enough ,
Stuck on something –
Wandering over the beach ,
Just to have a gift ;
Yet , finding no one, nothing
to give you that shift…”
On a first glance at this poem that I leave here unfinished , may make you feel overwhelmed . What am I talking about ? What is this enigma and what are you searching for , wandering over the beach ? It may also make you feel, is this the enigma itself to wander over the beach and beseech before everyone to get that special kind of gift that you`ve yearned, for a long time ? The question may remain unresolved, until I break this enigmatic spell around you and help you to probe deep into the corner of your self , in a more explorative way where you may find some layers of inconsistencies but in spite of those multiple layers of uncertainties, you may also feel the essence of an ideal meaning that`s universal and buried deep inside yourself, since the primordial time of your existence. It may not appear in a tangible way, in a linear way of any structural pattern, but you can feel its very presence within your being as a source of inspiration, that`s always whispering into your ears not to stuck where you`re, but to inspire yourself in order to bring that much awaited metamorphosis within your being to be aligned to your higher calling for which you`re destined. Today in this Blog , I would like to share with you an untold truth about your Inner Mind and her mysterious magical power of creating a newer you.
An utter failure of linear thinking to probe deep into your psyche
As your inner mind is an independent source of energy , so any monotheistic structural pattern would not suffice to analyze it . If you do so, it may hinder its independence resulting a form of chaos . Sometimes, it may be an issue, while you`re suffering from an unexplained case of self- betrayal i.e. you`re yearning for something and getting something starkly different from that, resulting some sort of existential crisis and that related hopelessness . During that period , you may also perceive an invisible gap ; some sort of miscommunication in the course of your daily life and belongings . And I think at this very moment , you need to explore that enigma that is very much surrounded with your being, as well as with the entire universe beyond the realm of any definable reality. And here its indefinability makes it very much perceptible in the world of nonlinear ways of thinking .
As we already know that our world is full of complexities and as a result of that pluralistic thought patterns and differentiation of meanings have completely pervaded through out the society and our act of life on a large scale . So , understanding this enigma , buried deep inside yourself as the inner core of your mind where your soul resides is not like comprehending a general catastrophe that comes just before the climax ; instead an independent plot that knows no boundaries when to raise the curtain or when to fall , yet simultaneously goes along with you , wherever you go , sometimes to enjoy , sometimes to explore your inner workings when you`re acting on this stage of your life , yet at the same time helps you to weave on that plot , in a subtle way , with the deeper shades of your existence . Sometimes , the perceptibility occurs when a trail of thoughts come in your way in the form of an unexpected introspection , sometimes with the help of images and symbols , sometimes through your intuitive knowledge like a sudden flash of lightning. But , you need not to baffle at that very moment or make yourself stumble as a lonely wanderer. Instead , I`ll assure you that amidst these multiple shades of thoughts and multiple colors of indefinability , you may find the essential meaning of your existence that is beyond any ideas of linearities but having that magical power to lead your self towards a fertile land of inner creation where only soul can paint , soul can share and soul can touch those unfathomable corners of your being through a process of creation and re-creation .
Let`s have a deconstructive vision of your Inner Mind
If you probe deep into the internal layers of your Inner Mind you may have a clear idea of what are the basic potentials of your Mind and how it can lead you towards an unknown territory of deeper realization or some kind of higher knowing to recreate yourself once again , in a newer way .
While the word `INNER` itself connotes its own potentials , similarly , if you de – construct the word ` MIND` , you`ll find these following potentials in this four lettered word .
M ——– Connotes its Multiple , magical potentials
I ———- Connotes its Inspiring energy that continually pushes
you towards different Innovativeness .
N ———– Connotes its yearning for Newness
( On a Higher level realization )
D ———— Its potential as a Dynamic server that creates Change
(In a Transformative sense )
In the process of deconstructing your Inner Mind (where your Soul resides ) you should have an idea of its spontaneous , intrinsic flow that`s always been within you as your innate potential , since your primordial existence . So , while I`m talking about its Multiple , magical potentials , I can assure you that any logical or linear ways of thinking cannot interpret this notion because its multiplicities not only introduces before you an unknown wonderland to hover around but also makes you feel to be aligned to that unseen territory. Your simplistic interpretations and the ways of traditional thoughts may disperse you at that moment. As you probe deeper ; several meanings may come on your mind, conflicts may come and go , yet you cannot restrict yourself to move forward . And here in lies its mystery ; the mystery of its continuity, the mystery of its independence, its infinite magical power to push you towards the region of self – knowing more in an explorative way. In case of its Innovative potential, it always acts as an Inspiring persona , never letting you feel baffled amidst the dispersal of meanings that you`re experiencing at the moments of your existential crisis . Rather, she`ll invite you towards the gateway of an imaginal world more in a creative way, where symbols , images and metaphors are the only expressive pictures to be painted on the tapestry of your soul , igniting within you a higher passion to light up your candles (The Candles of your Being ) that once you left behind . In case of its other potentials as Newness, I would tell you that it always has a tendency to form you in a newer way, amidst those multiple potentials, scattered in different forms . It gives you that chance to grow and mature, within with the help of your inner potentials , once again , through a continuous process of inner probing and self realization. It also acts as a Dynamic Server to bridge in the lacuna that sometimes you may feel in the form of depression, anxiety or in the form of an unexplained pain , resulting instability and emotional turmoil ( may be the cause of your detachment from the ultimate source of divine Energy ) . If you probe more into this innerland, you may feel that it`s also helping you to discover a newer version of yourself where it acts as a transformative energy where you can feel the essence of a newer you, but not at the cost of losing your essentialities amidst these variables, amidst those continuous change, instead picking up those variables to create a newer you . And, now, this transformed you can only yearn to be united to the ultimate divine energy and find a way to be reconciled to your true being , once again .
When consciousness meets the horizon of inner knowing, conflicts can only choose to be blurred
In order to deconstruct this enigma in an explorative way , I would like to share an incident of an IT professional who was very much successful in that usually competitive and socially comparable success meter .She didn`t have any lack, apparently . Rather , she had everything that makes one`s life joyful and acceptable in a luxurious way , she had a fair job and a superfluous salary to inhabit . But, she always had been experiencing a kind of gap , quite unexpectedly in spite of her apparently glittering lifestyle . Days after days things got worsened and eventually she started to avoid her usual office works. Whenever asked by someone , she used to answer , “ I don`t feel like, this day ..” After some days , her problem started to increase more, making her unable to sleep at night . And there was no other option for her but to consult with a psychoanalyst . When asked by him , on their first meet, “ So, What are you seeking for ? As I see , you`ve everything to make your life prosper …” , for sometime , she remained silent, as if finding no answer to link the line , but after sometime she naively replied , “I`m seeking something to fill in the gap, the lack, I`ve been experiencing ..” She paused for a while , then continued, “ I don`t know exactly what am I seeking for ? or for what reason am I feeling this lack ?” The psychoanalyst listened to her every words, then asked her politely, “ Do you love to listen Music ?”. She startled a bit , but gently replied , “ Usually , don`t have that much time , but often and on , I love to hear that .” “ Then , try to listen it at every night , just prior to your sleep, or whenever you feel free in a day .” He suggested. “ Is it going to help me to sleep?” She asked astonishingly , “ May be , if not , then it may help you to get that special something, you`re seeking for …and come to me after fifteen days.” He suggested . After fifteen days when she came to his chamber , a change on her face was very much visible .
“ So , how`re you feeling now ?” -The psychologist asked.
“ Much better .” – She replied .
“ So, how is your work going on ?”
“ Not better as before .”
“ But , why ? What happened , my dear ?”
“ Still , I`m unable to find that special something and it`s troubling me a lot, sometimes blocking me to do my works that I liked to do, a few months ago.” She replied. “ So you just liked to do it, never loved it, right ?” He asked. “ No , It`s not like that … But ..” She fumbled , but didn`t find any answer. “ Now , just do one thing , whenever you`re listening to your favorite music , try to concentrate on your work , that you like to do , I think, you`ll feel better , and this feeling may help you to love your work and do the things accordingly …” He suggested , wishing her All the Best ! After some days , during their third meet , she informed him about an unexpected experience that happened to her , “ Last night as I was listening to one of my favorite songs , I got completely lost myself, I was not even sure how long I was listening to that ? literally , I didn`t feel that much urge to sit in front of my laptop and prepare myself for the next day presentation, instead I was just feeling the song , as if my whole entity was trying to be merged with that … and within a few minutes, I felt that I was about to get that special something but with a blink of an eye , it got withered away and I found myself hopeless again , sitting lonely in my arm chair ! ”
“ Can you tell me how were you feeling then ?” He asked her. “ It can`t be expressed in words … But it was something, absolutely magical !” She replied with tears in her eyes. “Don`t be disheartened , my dear , I think, you`re very much close to that special thing …when you`re listening , just try to feel and perceive what do you like to do on that special moment ?” And truly, that much awaited miracle happened , after some days , when she came to her chamber with a painting in her hand, “ This is for you .” She said, bringing a gentle smile on her face , while delivering it to him . The psychoanalyst only nodded his head , smiling , as if expecting that and said , “ So , I think , this is your special thing , Isn`t it?” “Absolutely ! That heavenly one !” She screamed with joy .
Do you want to know , what she painted on that ; it was a marvelous painting , completely dipping her brush into the color of azure where on the sky of her imagination , a butterfly was flying to and fro , feeling its entity, glancing at a star that was shining bright and trying to share a special message to that transformed creature, perhaps at the same time .
When Self – Reflection brings a higher form of revelation
If you probe , deep into this matter , you may perceive that the process, the psychoanalyst applied for her was not to distract her but to make her feel , the inner essence of her being , the real yearning of her soul , where her consciousness expanded towards a different realm just to answer her soul`s calling . But it doesn`t mean that this process would be applicable for you all. But don`t get disheartened, rather try to fathom into the deepest region of your psyche . She may show you that perfect divine time to harvest yourself in a creative way . For that lady , it was a way of self – reflection where her love of listening music , acted as an external stimuli , helping her to reinterpret, what her inner essence was trying to say her in a secretive way , allowing her heart to open with a receptive energy .
Before this inner – knowing , she was completely unknown of its significant power and indulged herself to juggle between two identities. While the external core of her self tried to inspire her to become a more successful engineer, the other part of her identity was seeking something different , beyond any ordinary or linear level of interpretation . Rather , it preferred to express itself more in a different way , remaining invisible , yet making her to feel its presence, only for a fewer seconds when she was listening music, but went away suddenly and here , its very absence made her to believe more on its presence, though not in a tangible way , but somewhat in that way of perceiving an unseen reality.
Though , on a first stage , she couldn`t interpret that gap by her own linear or traditional thought patterns. And that resulted an existential crisis that started to trouble her both externally and internally . And at this very moment the psychoanalyst perceived her matter in a more compassionate way and helped her to open her heart and touch that eternal grace of her being where her soul could talk with her without any hindrance. And there quite automatically that much awaited revelation came to her as a spontaneous flow of nature , germinating within her a meta – inspiring state of consciousness. That consciousness actually helped her to leave behind all the old ways of thought patterns where she used to feel herself as a half way messenger, waiting on a crossroad and suffering from a gap or some sort of detachment. This higher level of consciousness not only helped her to bridge in that gap, but also made her to feel her true essence, the purpose that was very much aligned to her higher self and connected to the ultimate source of divine energy , always guiding and inspiring her in order to build a newer form of creation and recreation. And it`s only at this state, her soul can wait to make her believe that she is not a stuck energy but an energy of continuity and transformation for a higher purpose. You need not to be surprised by this incident as here her painting itself symbolizes that self –reflection (The Butterfly glancing at the star ) and transformative magic ( The Butterfly itself) that she had already treasured, within .
An emergence of a happy soul
While I`m suggesting you to de – construct your enigma inside , you need not to be baffled as deconstruction is not something to make you feel deprived of your inherent essence , but to discover a self – cognition in a newer way , by continuous probing into the deepest region of your psyche. While experiencing that process, you may be bewildered a bit, but don`t be disheartened my dear, as you`re going through a transformation towards an unknown territory, may be to discover a new found land with your new found identity . That unknown territory towards which you`re going, is nothing but only a significant change that already occurred within your self . You may not see it , but may feel its very presence through that continuous urge to connect your being to that ultimate source of divine energy where truth resides. And there you`ll find your true purpose .
So , when you`re doing such deep explorations , you`re not only using your mind , but your inner enigma that quite surprisingly helping you to feel your soul`s presence in an intuitive way. At that very moment , you may also feel a higher level of realization that knows no boundaries of logic or any rational ways of thinking but only knows when to evolve and how to evolve in a magical way . Now , its up to you , whether you prefer to feel that enigma ( lurking within, since your primordial existence ) and explore it for a higher purpose or prefer to be stuck as a caterpillar . But I would remind you further, it`s only the caterpillar who has that potential to rediscover itself into a beautiful butterfly ! Now , it`s your choice. But , if you listen to your soul`s voice , you can definitely hear her soft mumblings that I left unfinished at the opening section of this Blog ;
“ …But , I`ll be there for you !
Just probe Inside —-
Find out your inner Star
and peep into that Door
That once you left, ajar !”
